MY ADOLESCENCE - II (concluded)

Adolescence -ii

The rehearsal for the opening -show-dance went for almost two weeks and the girl stuck to her choice of dancing with me unto the final day of the show. maybe , she liked me as a partner and i also liked and enjoyed that piece pf my part to dance with her. As told , she was a distant relation of the same family ,I was living with and this was a very big and well off family.

At night we, ten to fifteen boys and girls were sleeping on a sprad out bed-deck on the first floor and those hqppy days rippled so fast until the puja festival was over.

I first felt the depth of my emotional attachment when I had to leave my aunty's house and come back 'Home'. Only I remember so well that I almost kicked and jumped in joy with swelled up happiness inspite of some obscure feeling of leaving some thing behind. No , I did not know what it was but was so happy and sad ,at the same time , until I reached back our villege.

And I was not the same teen age boy anymore craving for my child hood life. Maybe , I was already getting introduced to my Adolescence at last !

MY ADOLESCENCE (autobiography)

Gone are the days of my childhood -joy, when i was alone in the world, with this world in a remote rural setup with ponds ,canals rivers , trees, jungle &bush,birds,ducks,boats,space ,silence ,clouds , sky and I on a branch of mango tree with a "jhinuk"(tropical shell rubbed unto a whole to slice green mango and of course salt in a paper-wrap.Overmore, my three marbels snd top in my pocket. What more I needed , then, to meet Nature every when and play with.
Never knew the date when adolescence crept within me and started teasing me out to my next life of physical joy.soon I started noticing my physical differences on the backdrop of my cousin girls and neighbours ,started feeling new pleasures of (was ii or 12)living.then during puja fest, went to two-village away Jalabari' where ome of my aunty lived and they were well off. During puja festival they were staging a play with the opening chorus song and dance with ten girls. Really, there were nine only and my didi (sister, 8-9 years older) found in my frail body and fair skin suitable 'girl' to recruit the tenth artist and placed me in front as a partner to the girl, 4/5 yrs younger and the rehearsal started without counting my side of feeling amongst nine girls.This girls name was Sabita, my Aunty's relative from another place ,very beautiful and the rehearsal started with our one arm around the waist of the other and lifting the chin with the other. Try to nderstand me, -I was 12/13 then !(contd)

INDIA ON REVERSE GEAR

Not on economic footing ; rather, there it is brighter side.
I am speaking of moral and spiritual base of India where erosion and degeneration is obvious like a leper's sore.
In Corrupt practices, Swiss Bank hoarding by mafias and politicians(70 Lakh crores of Rs). In sex and flesh trade Rathore, N. D Tiwari cases are glowing fires Overmore even some God-men are copying Khajuraho and Konark style of living. In VUlgarism and political street-shoow Mayavati is aspiring for name in GUINESS BOOK of RECORDS.
yet inspite of stampade -death of starving mass in Lucknow and Asia's biggest Slum in Copy-cat 'Bollywood'-state,India is thriving in economy.Thank God for Black money.
India is ,now, RAVANA's SWARNA LANKA not RAMA'S poor AYODHYA (exception - Mayavati).
Moral principal and spirituality is suffering from 'Vanishing Erosions'
Jai ho India ! Now is the spring of body flesh and mind ! and Match-fixing Cricket has already take front page space for publicity for a Post-colonial corporate business and film stars are swarming over for mammonic honey. And every one is there to blame 'Maoism' but none to understand , - why the neglected down-troddens are desiring them !

My POEM : The Other Way

A part of that I gave you my Lovr and a part to her ,-who
surmoning me to be a slave to Love and herslf
mastered the art of Escape// Thus, love builds up or cracks
the damage and loss I accept , as it's a game
Even some part of whole stock of grains get spoiled.
So many can do in better ways, says some one
I agree, and even then reamain the same
wait for the time of sowing and
the storm , the rain or the flood have their ways
Even the drought or blizzard time, have rights
Dear, how long more you want to convince.
In the folds and cracks of life the the final accounting prevails
It's only aa self-review in a Mirror, !
Then let us settle and compromise
Then ,even the conflict or battle can end up dear
And with this feeling , a part I offer to you and a part to her
who telling me to be the slave of love ; herslf, --escapes.(Original Bengali poem Of 1970-80s; Translated now).

Counting Back-wards

Ihese days, / even amongst young ladies gatherings / I don't know why / I yawn so often and feel sleepy// And now a days , overmore ,/ even in Rbindra -sangeet festive time/ get so distrought with disturbing mood / and think- i should have some more LIC policies /

Now a days ,in so many ways , I feel so taught and sense.// This is not normal ways , I know/ I also know , -they are not healthy signs/ I should now re-trace to normal set-up of life/ and measure all values in other ways// But even then, I can't help// And inspite, -while attending any Tagore-song fest/ I can't help thinking/ I should have some more L.I.C -policy / by some measured ways.
[ Wrtten in Bengali in 1980s ; Translated to day]

DREAM OF RE-VIVAL

Like finding back the missing purse
with full month's pay
If ever
you find back your lost life and in desired shape
or the broken glass in re-born way

That may be a chance or dream
or the' revival gift'
....in another way

Then, - be grateful - at least once
for this re-incarnation or re-birth
Oh ! it may never happen !
Oh ! yes , it may happen
sometimes -or
At least once ! [written on 14/03/1.0]

DOWN - POUR OF FLESHY NEWS (INDIA)

Swamiji in CHENNAI, running Mega Sex-Business. !//Mayawati"s U.P (lucknow); 63 starving people stampaded to death for waiting -for food , while the great Lady is pouring hundreds and hundreds of Crores of Rs. to build temples and Statues ( even of herself) all over U.P.

AND Gujrat's Modi is shown with a 'Commercial'SADHU involved in Sex.

And Gujrat,s Modi shown in News-paper with a Sadhu involved , heavily , in Sex - Business

jAI HO ! MOTHER INDIA& 7 I think Padma for all of them. What you ,people think ?