A TALE BEHIND MY CRAFTED 'SMILES' AND JOYOUS ' DANCE '
( OR : ??? HOW TO CONVINCE !!! )
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1 . 1983 : Father's Death ( Served him by his dying side( 3 -4 months and as best as I could )..
2. 1984 : Jhumur's Marriage :
Along with the UN-wanted HOTEL - BURDEN on my SHOULDER---// Quarrel with my
Brothers.
[Never wanted to be involved in FAMILY - PROPERTIES yet had to SWALLOW the
'BITTER - PILL ' with REGULAR QUARREL and ' IN - FIFGHTING S' ]
3 . 1988. Mother's DEATH. Was by her Death - Bed - Side and also at Hospital to the Last, by
her side . Then ---->
[ To USA -- Birth of Shiraj ; stayed there for a Year and Shiraj's heart condition etc ]
4. 1989 returned to DELHI ; Bulbul to USA (?).
Hotel - Quarrel and running TROUBLES in Shouldering Late Fathers' Business ( Hotel) every
3rd or 4Th. momth.
5 RANA to USA /// Babi in Ahmedabad// me and Bulbul shutteling between DELHI - USA
alternataely . btween 1990-91; 1991-92
6 !992 ;Bulbul to USA with GREEN Card and to be present at Jhumur's side during
Natasha's Birth ( to look after).
[ and my only ' OXYGEN' in all these HOTEL- TROUBLE- TIME and HOTEL - QUARREL- INFERNO was my 'Hobbies ' like poetry , Art etc ]
7. !993 : Finally ESCAPED to USA with GREEN CARD .
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8 My final DREAM was : TO RETIRE to a POST - USA - LIFE with your Mother and
giving up all WORLDLY HABITS and ATTACHMENTS and live some IDEAL RECLUSE -
LIFE SOMEWHERE .
9 But PREDESTINATION and FATE , perhaps , wrote my Life - story in ANOTHER way by making your Mother CONDITION as it is Found now !
10. And I HAVE NOW NO PLACE NOR 'FRIEND' TO LIVE, REMEMBER or
RECAPITULATE MY LIFE'S PEAK STORIES OR REMEMBRANCES .
And EVEN MY NEAREST ONES , OFTEN DON"T UNDERSTAND OR TRY TO
KNOW :
? WHY I RUN FOR 'GREEN - BRANCHES OR TWIGS OF 'EXPRESSIVE VALUE ' EVEN IN RAJARHAT TO BE WITH 'MYSELF ' TO FORGET SO MANY 'THINGS' !!
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( OR : ??? HOW TO CONVINCE !!! )
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1 . 1983 : Father's Death ( Served him by his dying side( 3 -4 months and as best as I could )..
2. 1984 : Jhumur's Marriage :
Along with the UN-wanted HOTEL - BURDEN on my SHOULDER---// Quarrel with my
Brothers.
[Never wanted to be involved in FAMILY - PROPERTIES yet had to SWALLOW the
'BITTER - PILL ' with REGULAR QUARREL and ' IN - FIFGHTING S' ]
3 . 1988. Mother's DEATH. Was by her Death - Bed - Side and also at Hospital to the Last, by
her side . Then ---->
[ To USA -- Birth of Shiraj ; stayed there for a Year and Shiraj's heart condition etc ]
4. 1989 returned to DELHI ; Bulbul to USA (?).
Hotel - Quarrel and running TROUBLES in Shouldering Late Fathers' Business ( Hotel) every
3rd or 4Th. momth.
5 RANA to USA /// Babi in Ahmedabad// me and Bulbul shutteling between DELHI - USA
alternataely . btween 1990-91; 1991-92
6 !992 ;Bulbul to USA with GREEN Card and to be present at Jhumur's side during
Natasha's Birth ( to look after).
[ and my only ' OXYGEN' in all these HOTEL- TROUBLE- TIME and HOTEL - QUARREL- INFERNO was my 'Hobbies ' like poetry , Art etc ]
7. !993 : Finally ESCAPED to USA with GREEN CARD .
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8 My final DREAM was : TO RETIRE to a POST - USA - LIFE with your Mother and
giving up all WORLDLY HABITS and ATTACHMENTS and live some IDEAL RECLUSE -
LIFE SOMEWHERE .
9 But PREDESTINATION and FATE , perhaps , wrote my Life - story in ANOTHER way by making your Mother CONDITION as it is Found now !
10. And I HAVE NOW NO PLACE NOR 'FRIEND' TO LIVE, REMEMBER or
RECAPITULATE MY LIFE'S PEAK STORIES OR REMEMBRANCES .
And EVEN MY NEAREST ONES , OFTEN DON"T UNDERSTAND OR TRY TO
KNOW :
? WHY I RUN FOR 'GREEN - BRANCHES OR TWIGS OF 'EXPRESSIVE VALUE ' EVEN IN RAJARHAT TO BE WITH 'MYSELF ' TO FORGET SO MANY 'THINGS' !!
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